The Wonders

[Judy]

Crystal - I really enjoy your blog!!!

even when you're embarrassed!!!

Much love
Judy
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[ctavares]

Thankyou Thankyou! lol

[ctavares]

I love how i wrote something here and it got erased lol anyways i love how i threw a post it note in my mouth in front of some friends...had fin seeingg ones reaction lol im not gonna lie i kinda got excited when the wonders said there will be turmoil, just cause it means somethings changing gee lol curious and kinda afraid of what will happen lol

[ctavares]

I hate that i dont give a dam about meeting up with strangers, and my parents throw all this fear at me about it...then limit everything...,.

[ctavares]

Why figure out where it comes from? why not just enjoy it? lol did i get the question right? lol oh well ill here it on the recording lol i love that question by the way!

[ctavares]

So i was reminising how much i miss and love gospel choir...now thats music i love!!! but i dont agree with the words anymore! what do i do?

[ctavares]

so earlier i had an argument with my parents...so thay show got postponed again...for like the 80th time...so whatevrr lol maybe i shud just let it go lol anyways my mother panicks and gets mad cause she would invite capeverdean grownups that speak no english..and i wouldnt be really doing capeverdean music..so she gets all mad....and just when im like thinking ok im going to sing songs that i like to sing....like the wonders told me...she comes with that...i would be open to it..but once my parents want tell me i have to do it...and i kinda dont want to...i tend to rebel...nothing major lol anyways then my father comes and is like let me call the capeverdean girl who plays the guitar...and im like wow and so im like so i really gotta do cv music...then he comes with his laptop and plays this song he has been trying to get me to sing for so long and im like i dont wanna sing that....then we get into an argument about how i should be like selena lol...umm no...the wonders already made me feel dumb about trying to be beyonce lol and yada yada he basically says hes not gona come...and im like ok..ill do it somewhere else anyways..i dont need anyone..then hes like ok then u dont need money..that hes never gona give me money, never gona come to my shows...wow then i walked off crying lol....just when i was getting to the part on my school essay about how my parents always support me with music no matter what! that happens....talk about turmoil huh....ouch that did hurt....so now im like i gotta find gigs asap...my father didnt mean it tho....i kno for sure....there cool parents...its just that sometimes they think im supposed to be a certain way...when im never gonna be...like being neat...they still didnt give up on that one...they waste a whole lot of energy on that..they havent realized that thats just who i am...but yea we are talking...im still mad tho a little...i will look into it...cause it would be nice to include my capeverdean fans lol and it will be in a capeverdean restaurant...but i gotta feel the musi

[ctavares]

Feel more in touch....i do just want to be myself...im tired of straining myself in many ways....im sitting in a room full of people but feel invisible...im ready to just turn around.....and never look back...remembering why i sing...and letting go of trying to be like others....so done.....

[ctavares]

who would have known there was karaoke on somedays at a bar pretty much on campus lol

[ctavares]

its funny how im finding opportunitires


wierd how im finding different ways to sing and work on music at school...karaoke on mondays, tuesdays, and somewhere else on wednsday. someone i was referred to to workcon music with, someone who comes here but never on campus who heard me on facebook and likes me and wants to help...he said they gotta evaluate me and see if im ready to be on his mixtape lol he seems to be doing alot, gotta tour bus, bringing the famous drake to perform...this other guy, so he says lol that he will pay for me to get piano lessons from his friend...lol

[ctavares]

GRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrr....I Hate telling white lies!!! I dont feel good when i do lol We are told to be honest....but then taught to be nice....even if you have to lie....i dont get it?

[ctavares]

still chewing on those postit notes lol well paper cause im kinda to broke right now to buy postit notes lol i think its workin..lol im accepting the fact that i stand out from my peers...im getting used to traveling alone...i decided to ask one of my friends to go to karaoke with me and they ended up not going....so do i say im not going anymore cause of that...hellllllll no.



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[ctavares]

Great...now.i.have.been.asked.to.be.a.backup.singer.....what.do.I.do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.idk......i.would.do.it.but.then.i.dont.want.to.have.to.put.some.elses.shows.before.mine......what.the.hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can.i.just.do.it.all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.and.why.am.i.finding.all.this.karaoke.stuff.near.school!!!!!all.of.a.sudden.lol

[ctavares]

still chewing on this dam paper lol its been a month!!! lol

[Judy]

Maybe a little salt & pepper would help!!!!!!!


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